Loving you is what I was trying to do.

There was a time I could run to you if ever I had a problem or I had something that was bothering me.

But now, that and everything else has changed.

You're the reason I keep to myself most of the time unless I am with the people I care about.
You're the reason I cry myself to sleep every single day.
You're the reason I have to fake a smile everywhere I go.
You're the reason I have the persistent knee pain that I always say "Oh nothing, I just knocked my knee against the table".
You're the reason I am waiting for everything to end.

I don't know why of late you're being dependent on us. It's like you lose your arms and legs when we're not around with you. You complain about how you hate watching TV alone. Hello, look at me. I watch TV all by myself and I'm still happy. In fact, I like doing things on my own. I can still survive, I am not entirely dependent as you think I am.

If you were still a baby, I'd understand it because I know they have separation anxiety. You, on the other hand, are a grown adult male, not a baby...so I don't think you have that.

Grow up. Enough of this childish insensitivity. Your bloody mind games have taken its toll on me before and I had the worst breakdown in my life to the point my friends were exhausted too.


You can see it in my eyes, I'm all cried out with nothing to say...you're everything I wanted to be.